Thoughts on Self-Definitions Through Recovery

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Self-Definitions We walk through most of our lives with a pretty clear idea of who we are, even if we feel lost an uncertain. We may not know what we like or what we want to do but we have a sense of who we are at the core. Recovering from my eating disorder has

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A Girl Awaiting Rescue

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“A girl expecting rescue never learns to save herself. Even with the means, she will find her courage wanting.” ― Kate Morton, The Forgotten Garden I spent years waiting for someone to rescue me, and letting the people who love me try SO hard to save me. They spent so much money, energy, time, gas,

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Thoughts on “Firsts”

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Throughout recovery one of the most annoying things people said to me was “It’ll get easier”. I would spit horrible words and thoughts back at them; how did they know, I’d been at this for so long and it was only getting harder, that was easy for them to say, maybe for other people it

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Thoughts on Creating a Life Worth Living

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Choosing to recover from an eating disorder is one of the most terrifying things a person can do. For months, years or maybe even decades your entire world has been dominated by food, shape and weight worries. I spent years breeding intense self-hatred and developed my eating disorder slowly over 13 years. It became the

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Thoughts on Shame

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Shame: a painful emotion caused by consciousness of guilt, shortcoming, or impropriety. Everyone feels embarrassed or ashamed at some point in their lives, they may have said something embarrassing, told a lie, broke something and tried to hide it, or did something that they knew was wrong. It is an absolutely normal response to normal

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