There’s more to gain than weight

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About a year ago I started thinking about my upcoming wedding. As much weight as I still felt I had to lose before I would be thin enough (not because of my wedding but because of my disorder) and as much fat as I saw whenever I looked in the mirror, I was thin and


Practicing Self Care

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Lately I’ve been practicing self care – getting back to the basics. Often times when you dislike and disrespect yourself and your body, the basics of self care go out the window. You stop showering, brushing your teeth, trimming your nails, shaving, getting dressed etc. These issues tend to be pretty common for people with


Feeling Self Destructive

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So, for the last little while I’ve been feeling more and more self-destructive. I don’t know for exactly how long because it’s built up slowly. For the last week and a couple days I have been tracking my calories again. It’s not overwhelming me and I’m not changing my decisions based on the numbers so