I made THE BEST smashed potatoes for dinner – I ate way more than a serving because they were so amazing. I’ve wanted ice cream all week, so I had some for dessert. More than one serving (not that I measured) because it looked so pitiful in the bowl. 9 months ago this would have
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About a year ago I started thinking about my upcoming wedding. As much weight as I still felt I had to lose before I would be thin enough (not because of my wedding but because of my disorder) and as much fat as I saw whenever I looked in the mirror, I was thin and
We all have a choice in the direction of our lives. Sometimes it takes great courage to stay on the right path, but that doesn’t make the pull of the other way any less seductive.
When I first started in recovery, my treatment team kept saying to treat recovery as an experiment. You are trying out something new to see how it fits, and you can always go back to your eating disorder if you want to, but you have to give the experiment a chance. I had a really
So, for the last little while I’ve been feeling more and more self-destructive. I don’t know for exactly how long because it’s built up slowly. For the last week and a couple days I have been tracking my calories again. It’s not overwhelming me and I’m not changing my decisions based on the numbers so