Thoughts on the Experiment and Acceptance

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When I first started in recovery, my treatment team kept saying to treat recovery as an experiment. You are trying out something new to see how it fits, and you can always go back to your eating disorder if you want to, but you have to give the experiment a chance. I had a really


Feeling Self Destructive

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So, for the last little while I’ve been feeling more and more self-destructive. I don’t know for exactly how long because it’s built up slowly. For the last week and a couple days I have been tracking my calories again. It’s not overwhelming me and I’m not changing my decisions based on the numbers so


Giving Myself the Credit I Deserve!

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Something I’ve noticed, I’m doing pretty damn well. I have great tools in my recovery toolbox. I have great strategies for dealing with unpleasant emotions and situations I give pretty good advice I have pretty good ideas of how to face certain situations. I tend to think that my recovery is a fluke of some