Thoughts on “Firsts”

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Throughout recovery one of the most annoying things people said to me was “It’ll get easier”. I would spit horrible words and thoughts back at them; how did they know, I’d been at this for so long and it was only getting harder, that was easy for them to say, maybe for other people it


Rediscovering Myself

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When I was about 3 years old my mom and I were out shopping and she got me an Easter egg to snack on. She thought it was such a wonderful treat that any child would LOVE to have. I took the egg and threw it away, grabbing instead for the salty pepperette she had


Thoughts on Creating a Life Worth Living

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Choosing to recover from an eating disorder is one of the most terrifying things a person can do. For months, years or maybe even decades your entire world has been dominated by food, shape and weight worries. I spent years breeding intense self-hatred and developed my eating disorder slowly over 13 years. It became the


“Comfort” Zone

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I recently heard someone describe what their comfort zone looks like: a nice soft comfy arm chair that is cozy and warm and you never want to get up out of. In that moment I realized that my comfort zone is the exact opposite. My comfort zone is dangerous and frightening. My comfort zone is