The Work is Never Finished in Recovery

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I think I might start calling my dietitian (H) my “food therapist”. We talk about normal dietitian things; the 5 food groups and benefits of them all, we talk about variety in foods and proper portioning but we also talk about what food (and lack of it) means to me. I tell her my story

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Possible Reprieve (TW BMI)

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Enigma: a person or thing that is mysterious, puzzling, or difficult to understand and the word my dietician used to describe my body’s weight gain.  17 months ago I started some much needed weight restoration and ever since then I have gained anywhere from 1-5lbs per week. Even after passing through the entire healthy BMI

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The Return of Hope

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The past couple of weeks have been particularly dark around here. Given my recent struggles I found it necessary to explore the depths of my disorder and dispel any romanticized ideas I had about when I was ill. My therapist has always said that when in recovery, it is common to romanticize the times when

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The Most Reckless Moments of My Eating Disorder

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Last week I wrote about the scariest moments of my eating disorder – one of the deadliest side effects of an eating disorder and my experience with it. Today I’d like to put some of that in perspective and talk about the most reckless moments of my eating disorder – my most recent relapse from

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