Thoughts on Commitment to Recovery

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I have been thinking a lot about my commitment to recovery, I explained my personal process to becoming commit here but I have been realizing that it is not just a one time thing – it requires constant re-commitment. In yoga I am doing an inner revolution program where you use yoga, food, meditation and “excavating

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There’s more to gain than weight

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About a year ago I started thinking about my upcoming wedding. As much weight as I still felt I had to lose before I would be thin enough (not because of my wedding but because of my disorder) and as much fat as I saw whenever I looked in the mirror, I was thin and

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Symposium Musings – Hope and Healing

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I went to a symposium today – which is just a really big word for a topic based discussion. Tonight’s topic: finding hope in and healing from your eating disorder (and other issues you may have!) A beautiful woman stood up and told us her story. How her disorder manifested, her main “aha” moments and

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Feeling Self Destructive

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So, for the last little while I’ve been feeling more and more self-destructive. I don’t know for exactly how long because it’s built up slowly. For the last week and a couple days I have been tracking my calories again. It’s not overwhelming me and I’m not changing my decisions based on the numbers so

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