When we think of celebrations we tend to think of the things most people celebrate; birthdays, anniversaries, weddings, births, graduations. Today I am celebrating an anniversary, but not an ordinary anniversary – today is the first anniversary of my new purge-free life. The ability to keep your food down is not something “normal” people celebrate.
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Sometimes when going about my day I see almost a ghost of myself doing the same thing weeks, months or even years ago. It’s like I’m remembering what life was like then, but I feel the same way I used to for a brief moment, almost like a ghost of myself from another life has
Last week I saw my old dietician from treatment privately. I had been thinking about seeing her for a while, but it was only in my moment of crisis that I decided to expand my treatment team. She looked at my meal logs for the 2 previous weeks and looked mildly impressed! Last time I
The past couple of weeks have been particularly dark around here. Given my recent struggles I found it necessary to explore the depths of my disorder and dispel any romanticized ideas I had about when I was ill. My therapist has always said that when in recovery, it is common to romanticize the times when
What I call the “secondary” symptoms of an eating disorder (described here) are often the trickiest to not only beat but even to spot. The trick to recognizing these little buggers is that they stick around even after the primary symptoms (binging, purging, restricting) dissipate. These are tiny little rituals and behaviours that keep the