The Return of Hope

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The past couple of weeks have been particularly dark around here. Given my recent struggles I found it necessary to explore the depths of my disorder and dispel any romanticized ideas I had about when I was ill. My therapist has always said that when in recovery, it is common to romanticize the times when

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There’s more to gain than weight

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About a year ago I started thinking about my upcoming wedding. As much weight as I still felt I had to lose before I would be thin enough (not because of my wedding but because of my disorder) and as much fat as I saw whenever I looked in the mirror, I was thin and

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Thoughts on the Experiment and Acceptance

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When I first started in recovery, my treatment team kept saying to treat recovery as an experiment. You are trying out something new to see how it fits, and you can always go back to your eating disorder if you want to, but you have to give the experiment a chance. I had a really

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